Mood: Heh.
Currently listening to: Bleed American - Jimmy Eat World

Another day spent at home in the main. No salsa because Martin, the instructor, was stuck in Singapore attempting to rescue the pianist he had hired from Columbia for his salsa club. Oh well.

Erm... yeah, really haven't done much except mope around and stare despondently at my (soon to be scrapped) assignment. Meh. Went to the pasar malam with my parents and the neighbours though. Had some kickass satay and some chicken biriyani rice so that was pretty good. Spent most of the time wandering the market solo or sneaking off for the occasional cigarette/wall-staring session. I think i'm still not in a right frame of mind.

Hrmm... was thinking about a few things and i was just wondering - how did our ancestors, prior to a formalized form of language and expression (consciousness?), think or rationalize thoughts to themselves? What did it feel like, to think in such a primal way? I'm not sure about everyone else but i tend to think in English - mainly in full, flowing sentences but with the occasional mass jumble of thoughts and feelings which somehow make perfect sense or present a conclusion, but which one cannot recreate without the greatest of difficulty into a coherent system of words either written or verbally.

But i digress - how did our ancestors think? Or animals for that matter? Was it through a sense of... 'instinct'? Something which they were unable to define or refine? How raw and decisive their emotions must have been. How... confused they must have been.

Poor dumb bastards.

Perhaps this is the truest definition we have of the evolution of humanity? The fact that we evolved such a communal system of 'language' which allowed us to explore and 'think' in a coherent and logical sense?

How lucky we are in that regard.

Or, come to think of it, unlucky. Knowledge and defined thought can be the greatest of curses if we take its gifts for granted... As indeed we have done. Which is stupider? Not being willing enough to acquaint ourselves with the admittance of a problem, or being stupid enough to knowingly create such problems for, admittedly, superficial gains while fooling ourselves with the potential risks involved?

Wait. Did i just repeat myself? No matter... 'tis just an ambling thought probably brought about by the pills...

Moving on, i've just realised that i haven't updated my sidebar for quite some time since i actually finished reading the Roald Dahl collection of short stories some time ago. Watch for a review soon! I have currently switched my reading habits back to that of a historical subject matter and, as such, am currently reading Fractured Europe 1600-1721 by a certain David Sturdy. Great stuff on a time period that has always been woefully overlooked by the vast majority of people. Or as Selina would say - 'I am such a geek/loser/etc.' ;)

This coming from someone with a truly unhealthy obsession for anything related to The Lord Of The Rings trilogy, and to Gandalf in particular (why???)... ;p

Anyhow, i'll be updating the links there as well as adding a few more sites run by friends that i know. They're not blogs per se, but hey, why not?

Oh, and before i forget, for those of you who know Melven (yes the one from Frank Tate House - Jolly?)... well, he's getting married in January (February?) next year in Singapore! And i've got myself an invitation to attend the wedding! Whoop! Geez, i can't even remember the last time i went to a wedding that was personally important to me... (erm, cousins aside)

Ah. Marriage.

How quaint.

*sigh*

Well, currently reading a thoroughly interesting article at the moment called The Education Of Alexandra Polier (and written herself), who was the intern with whom Presidential candidate Kerry was purportedly rumoured to be having an affair with a while back (read the news people!). Interesting because it touches upon a large range of topics - a rampant rumour hungry media as well as their outrageous harassment techniques, political conniving and smearing by the Republicans, bloggers who start political rumours on a whim, sexism in politics (how come its only women who seem to start such scandals?), the profile that infamy brings, and the (questionable?) newfound power of independant online news sources. All this thrown in the face of this poor young woman whose only fault was in being acquainted to Kerry. The media and its potential for manipulation is scary indeed - definitely a story of our times.

That, and she's pretty hot for a blonde. ;p

Anyway, until tommorow, adieu...