Mood: Pensive... and drowsy...
Currently listening to: Going Under - Evanescence
Thought Of The Day: "Ambition is a poor excuse for not having sense enough to be lazy." - Edgar Bergen

So yeah, not much in the way of updates since the past few days have just basically been work and uni, so i won't bore you with any of the details involving either of those two thing. Ah yes... drudgery. About the only social thing i did was meet up with Al and Leonard for coffee just now at Starbucks to talk about what to get Elaine for her birthday, and how to get there tomorrow (amongst other things ;p).

Well, ok, admittedly its been interesting in its own way and i HAVE been kept pretty busy... Hrmmm, its been a fair while since i've gathered my thoughts on my future work/career (if i ever did here), but what the hell - might as well start now.

Weird though, i never thought i'd have it in me to actually do all of this at the same time. A sense of purpose has finally (FINALLY) been achieved - nothing will stop me from graduation now that i have a plan and realization to follow through on. My initial personal objectives should be accomplished through this plan. Namely:

1. Self-sufficiency

Mainly concerning that of financial and career (in)dependency, the latter taking a little more time to build upon though through contacts, reputation, and proven abilities - isolation typically allows for lessons to be learnt faster and more efficiently as it is invariably a result of, in the main, one's own determination of what course of action to pursue and learning from them. Mistakes will be made, but hopefully not too many - this is partially negated in reference to other concerned parties through the fact that it is a novel environment for everyone. Still, they have their limits so i'll have to learn fast regardless. A trusted, and carefully selected, safety net 'support group' should be established as well, but this would seem to depend on who would be geographically around to bail out my ass when i need it than anything else... (thus far it seems my Godfather is the best option here - need to build up relationship much further).

2. Social isolation

Not in the sense of being a hermit, but rather that i will be free of many social obligations, or potentially detrimental/embarassing reminders of the past. Basically, a new start from nothing with a new controllable social base to build upon on my terms, concentrating primarily on business relationships (it WILL, at some point, become personally 'complicated' at some point - they always do - but that should be in a few years at least). Parents, and other family considerations, would come under this as well i suppose. Such isolation from the past should allow for a greater ability to develop new personality traits or behavioural patterns (brought about through necessary social/business/cultural/etc. environmental adaptation that would prove beneficial (hopefully!) in the long run.

3. Springboard

This is where it begins to get vague. Forward planning will only take you so far... but it is my hope that the experience (Armenia or otherwise) will allow me to build up a sufficient base of capital and experience to successfully determine my longer term plan of action (aka, rest of life) largely depending on any opportunities that may arise or reinforced realizations as to my capabilites/inabilities.

*phew* Shit lah, that could have been better written.

Meh. I'm tired.

But anyhow...

Interestingly enough, the Armenia plan is actually going ahead with the financing for my godfather (and father) to begin the project is finally within their grasp and i've detected an inordinate number of references to it in the past week. It even raises the possibility that i might be leaving for good earlier than the expected January/February. Hell, even at NSS during at the meeting i attended on Tuesday - the CEO's even going there with my father in Aug/Sept to scout it out with the intention of setting up a new office in the region...

Shit lah, and all these references have left me knowing, without mistake that everyone is, i quote, "Investing in me for future returns" (hrmmm... kinda cold).

Flattering, and more than a little intimidating really... *gulp*

Shit lah, looks like i'm gonna be one busy boy once i set foot in the country. Even my uncle has been mentioning something about looking for an opportunity for SIA to fly to the region. Hope they're not overestimating my abilites, i'm pretty wet behind the ears yet... :(

Still, opportunity knocks. All the pieces are coming gradually coming together, just as (partially) planned and its up to me to adequately prepare, line em up, and take that shot.

*I will not fail, I will not fail, I will not fail, I will not fail...*

My Russian language classes with a certain Dasha Kirienko have been arranged to commence as soon as my exams are over. In the meantime, my office tasks at NSS have been gradually becoming more complex and i've noticed that i have been invited to observe (discreetly at times) various going ons behind the scenes as to how business is conducted. As per their discussion with me previously i have no doubt that i'll be partaking in much of this, hands on, later on in the year as part of my mentoring process...

8 months to go.

Better blog post (the one i actually intended to write - with more links!) tomorrow afternoon so check back.